Do I want some of those things in the future?? Absolutely! :)
When did you start to feel like a grown up (if you do)? What was that a-ha moment for you?
Friday, May 27, 2011
Acting
I don't feel like an adult. I still feel like a kid, maybe in my early twenties. I feel like I'm just acting...playing the role of a grown up and a doctor out here in this big (but oh so small) world. I'm still waiting for that moment when I feel like an actual grown up. When does that moment come? Do I even want it to come? Is it because I have no ties or attachments to anything? It's very freeing. Not having a house with my name on it, no kids or husband to take care of, not having an apartment full of furniture, not even having a car (ok I still partially have a car). Knowing that I can just up and leave at any given moment and go anywhere at anytime. It is such an awesome feeling. :)
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when i first got pregnant. when else??
ReplyDeleteThe only problem I see with this freedom of youth is the eventual reality of feeling lonely and empty later in life. It is always easy finding friends and doing fun things when those around you are free also. Eventually life happens, your friends get into relationships and have kids etc., if you have none you sort of get left out. As you get older, you need family and familiar surroundings, as this will provide comfort and stability which you are trying so hard to avoid now. At some point you need to accept the fact that age happens regardless of how young you feel. You can always "feel" young and act young, sooner or later your mirror and body will tell you differently.
ReplyDeleteInteresting point of view. Funny how last time I lived in Cleveland and had these familiar surroundings around me, yet was the loneliest and unhappiest since I've graduated. A marriage and kids does not guarantee comfort, stability, or happiness. Not everyone is fulfilled by the same things in life. I would say I'm the most comfortable, stable, and happiest I've ever been in life :) Cheers!
ReplyDeleteHi Julie,
ReplyDeleteI would agree with you. I know plenty of people who did the normal thing and paired off and had kids. Some of them live lives of not so quiet desperation. If you want to be happy, be happy. There is no magic formula, and certainly not one that works for everyone. Enjoy you life, your way. Cheers.
Missed my point. Youth always surrounds you with others. Being older often isolates you (this is where family comes in, unless you never have a family of your own). You typically don't go down to the bar to hang out with 65-75 year olds, do you? Don't worry you have decades before you find that out. Have fun and stay single. Nothing wrong with traversing the planet. Actually it is pretty cool to be a free spirit and do your own thing. Sooner or later though, wouldn't it be more exciting to share your adventures in a little more detail intimately than with Anonymous?!! LOL You don't NEED someone else to make you comfortable,stable or happy, you WANT them to be able to accentuate all those things WITH you. You just don't have that person yet. You need to get your cat over there.
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